Random blabber part 2

I will finally admit this; I don't have any muscle mass. My core is so weak, it might as well be jello! I almost died doing pilates. Not only did I have to do the modified moves, I could not hold the positions long enough. The session was nauseatingly painful, and I'm still sore, two days later. Long gone are the days I considered myself athletic. I need to admit that to myself and start from zero, beginner level =(

How bad is the recession? I am living in a bubble and I have no idea how bad the financial situation is. Am I not supposed to shop or is it just the big stuff? Yeah, I'm an airhead when it comes to politics and finance.

I am a planner, I function best when I have a planner, old school paper and pen, not PDAs. I am more credible and tend to stick to my plans when I see it on writing. I restarted using one last week and I suddenly remembered why I was so efficient back in the days I used one. I am back on track now, and enshalla I am determined to stick to what works.

I am trying to improve myself, mind, body and spirit. It's not easy being virtuous all the time, but I'm taking baby steps. It takes 40 days (?21, ?28, I never remember what the number is!) to make a habit. Seven days down, by the end of March I want to be content with my improved self.

I have a countless book marks, store bought, hand-made, from holidays, conferences, lectures, events. Yet I manage to bookmark with random things, a receipt, a tissue paper, a business card. Brick Lane this week is bookmarked with a plaster bandage!

I can't help crying every time I see a child with autism. I pretend to be strong for every one's sake, but when I am miles away, I break down a little bit, so I rebuild a stronger me, for them.